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[Feb. 13th, 2005|10:00 pm] |
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| | Jack Off Jill: Girlscout | ] |
Hmm. I got to spend all day friday ( almost ) with jacob. That's made me happy. Hmmm....Friday, what did we do..oh yeah!
1. Robert came over and we sat trying to think of what to do. First, we thought about going to Chilis, then Sakura, a japanese restaruant. then we were like Javawerks! Then were thinking about going to jackson, then new orleans, then the coast, finally we decided to go to the mall, then chilis, then javawerks afterwards.
2) Ben tagged along-
3: Went to the mall. Bought me two Yaois. Selfish Love 2 and Only The Ring Finger Knows. Also bought CLAMPS Legal Drug one and two. Went to FYE and bought Jack off Jills' cd. I forgot which one though. Jacob called, he came and yeah. Ran into Brandon and Tim, Brothers, with their girlfriends, coworkers of me and jacob. Talked.
4" Ran into Russ ( UGH ) and Change ( eh ).
5] Went to chilis, had like, the most fun ever. I loved it.
6: went to booksa million
7 drove around
8 said goodbye to jacob, went to mcdonalds ( work) and got oreo mcflurries with robert.
9 went home
Jacob also got me a valentines gift! It was fun
Saturday, I had to work, and since I got hom late, i slept from 3 at night till 4 the next day. then went to work. jacob was working, so that was fun.
Sunday: spent the day with Darla. Which was great. I haven't able to hang out with her in forever. I wish we could hang out more often. We dyed each others hair. Both the same color. Mine came out pretty good despite having black hair, but hers we tried to dye white and red. But the white wasn't working and the red....But her hair still looks nice. I just wish it came out better. Since I was doing the dye job for her, I feel responsible...Sorry Darla! But, afterwards, we left and went and bought some fried dil pickles, which are gooood, then to mcdonalds and got some apple pies and a hot and spicy, then to get gas. I got coned into work though -.- so I had to leave early and go to work. But jacob was working, so that was great. I got to hold onto him for awhile. I loved it.
Anywyas...that's about it for my weekend, Oh! I also went to walmart at 12:30 at night and bought sleepy hollow....yeah...lol.
Well, I'm tired, school tomorrow. so I'll write later. Bye!!
-Missy |
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[Feb. 10th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| |  discontent | ] |
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| | Jack off Jill: Surgery, Underjoyed, Horrible | ] |
2 hours since i last seen him
Already I miss him
Wish they'd put him on break so he can call me...
I want to hear his voice....
I'm so disgusting...
Why does he like me...
Me
Stab me in the back
Ugh! I'm so disgusting
I wish I'd die already....
Fat and horrid...
Why....
I am alone....
I miss him... |
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[Feb. 10th, 2005|07:03 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| |  Broken | ] |
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| | Jack off Jill: Surgery | ] |
~I can change I can cut it open
Look at me the way you did before
I can change
Diagnose the symptom
Buy the anecdote but not the cure
Hold me under
Cut away this empty
Hold me under
Change the way I feel about you
I can change
I'll correct the defect
Repair the injury called you and me
I can change
I'll surrender to it
I can suffer with the best of them
Hold me under
Cut away this empty
Hold me under
Change the way I feel about you
I can't change
I'll replace the decay
Make you second guess your everyday
I can't change
I'll survey the damage
Kill the narcissist with his reflection
Until tomorrow
Hold me under
Cut away this empty
Hold me under
Change the way I feel about you
Hold me under
Cut away this empty
Hold me under
Change the way I feel about you
Until tomorrow
Jack off Jill
Surgery ~
Do you care about me?
Do you?
You don't talk to me
You ignore me
You care only for your 'new' emo bitch friends.
I'm sorry
But I think out of everyone
Everyone
That I know
You were the one that truly mattered
Your opinion mattered the most to me
You were my best friend
You were the one person I could fall onto...
But I don't have that anymore
You know I'm talking to you
Only two people read this journal.
You know it's you.
If I piss you off that badly
If I anger you that badly
If I disgust you so much
Then say it
So I can stop wondering why and I can stop this pain in me...
You were my one true friend and I never wanted to lose you...
But you threw me away...
Why...? |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|11:14 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence: TIght | ] |
Yes
I'm female. but goddamn!!!I CAN'T STAND MOST ( ALL ) OF THEM! WHY DO FEMALES FEEL THE NEED TO GIGGLE SENSELESSLY FOR HOURS STRAIGHT!!! OR SCREAM AT EVERY LITTLE TINY MOVEMENT BE IT DRINKING WATER OR BLINKING!?!?
Yeah. Saw Boogeyman and goddammit!! It was either giggling or screaming, never silence with those two goddamn females!! After awhile it was " who could get on the others nerves the most" contest going on. We won, to me, since we were behind them so we could kick their chairs and laugh in the same annoying way, but louder and a lot more fakeness. Then they'd be like' ugh, we're trying to watch the movie!" then we'd just stare at them, and laugh, then wait till it was quiet then just SCREAM bloody murder for no reason and scare the shit out of them, they literally jump.
God, can't stand females.
And!! Today I get called in at 1 to come in and work. I was like' Shiiiiit..." cause I was in the middle of a shower, but being me. I'm like " Alright, I'm on my way!" Get there, and don't get off till 10:45. AT NIGHT. I didn't even get a break till around 7. But I got to eat for free and all that good stuff because I came in an extra 4 hours early. Hah! Yay for me. That's a shiat load of money there...to me that is.
Um....what else....what else what else what else...Oh, I forgot....blah, i forgot again!! I guess i'll tell later.....anyways! Love you all!! Meine lieblings. CIao!
-Missy
-PS Oh yeah~~ ME and jacob are going out!! yay!! |
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[Jan. 31st, 2005|07:14 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
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| | Jack off Jill: Love song | ] |
hahhaha.
I went on a date with Jake this sunday. It was at pizza hut. It was supposed to be just me and him. but he brought like, all of his friends, or most of them. SO I felt really weird cause they were like...older...college guys. I was mostly silent cause I didn't know what to say around them x.x
His friends were cool though. Same interests and such. They were trying not to embarass him but lol, guys.....
Hmm...then me and him hung out along for like, an hour, his friends left and yelled things out the window, funny lol, I was laughing lol. We bought movies, me Edwards Scissorhands and him Kill Bill Vol. 1. Then he had to go to work at 5 so we had to leave, but we hung out at gamestop for a bit before we did.
I don't have to work till thursday. yay!! -dance of happiness- I got this cooooooool Nightmare before Christmas jacket. I lurves it. And I also got some converses, finally, and some skull laces to go with it, and um......reeed lipstick and black eyeliner.
I am so tired!! And I need to lose 20 lbs before...sometime....at least 10 or 15......I dunno....well. I dunno what else to write, so I'll leave it at that. Bye!
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|05:53 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | devious | ] |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence: Tight | ] |
Blah!!! Finally, some days off of work. The entire weekend!!
Which means....!!!
Homework -.-; and a whole shitlaod of it....;_;
And again!!
I slipped at work. I was walking to get Skaggs ( aaron ) the drinks for his order, and it was near 10 o'clock. ( damn people coming to mcdonalds at 10 at night ordering a shitload of food. FATASS!!! ) So anyways, Skaggs had just finished mopping front counter, and like, I was all " Tra la la la ' and walking over to the drinks when blah!!! I slip and slide onto the ground. So I start laughing, cause I'm like ' GODDAMN THIS IS THE SECOND FUCKING TIME!! ' and Skaggs comes over and is just shaking his head, picks me up off the ground, as in, one arm under my legs ( knees) and the other around the middle of my back, picks me up off the and sets me down on TOP of the counter and is just like " Do I need to put down a caution, slippery when wet sign around EVERY single drop of water in the place that's on the floor because you seem to slip on every single molecule there is of water in here. " Then proceeds to continue taking peoples orders. Blah!! Then he also talks about my ass. I can't help that I have a big ass. I'm part hispanic. It comes with it. Well, my 'ass' has a tendency to push the 'hold' button in the drivethrough when I'm presenting people with their foods. So whenever it happens, he'll just be like" Donna!! Your ass is doing it again!!" and I'm like' damn!! Spank it and make it behave" and then everyone else in the back starts laughing and so are we. How I love working at Mcdonalds... for certain reasons. Ha ha ha ha.
School is kinda pain. A lot of...work...kinda...just objectivs that could be done in like, 5 minutes. But math. MATH!! How the hell did I get into this class??? " Survey of Mathematical Topics' God. What was I thinking. I HATE math with a passion. -grumble grumble-
Hmmm... I'm not sure if anything else is going on.....I'm liking Skaggs....Brandon I've been liking.....what is it with me and guys named 'Brandon'???
Hrn...if I've left anything out. I'll be sure to update again. Soon I promise!!
Oh!! I've also started on my own Comic-manga. If you're interested, let me know and I'll give you the link....only the first page and a test page are done though so....yeah......-shrugs and waves as she goes off to catch up on some sleep-
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[Jan. 14th, 2005|04:32 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | amused | ] |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence: Dickface | ] |
ARGH IT HURTS!!!
And now my inner ear hurts. Gosh.......ergh....-crosses that out- I mean goddamn....
But all is well because I cashed my paycheck....a whopping 90.34....that's like...mcdonalds and a pair of jeans at hottopic.....maybe....I dunno.....me and my friend shannon are trying to get a ride to the coast so we can go to edgewater mall to go to Hot Topic. But we probably got it. I hope. -.- I need clooooothes. My ear!!! -whines-
;_; and because of my throat, I can't even sing.... -loves to sing- my voice may not be the best, but it's pretty damn good. Yeah!! Besides...it's not Britney Spears - christina aguilera- jessica simpson - pop ( UGH ) voice-singing-ness, so of course, to the vast majority, its probably like, ugh to them. but to MY kind of people. its like '......yay...." lol, or something...I don't know >.>;;;
Been listening to MSI like mad lately too.
Oh my god lol, I just remembered something
Yesterday, at work, the most embarassing thing happened to me.
It was my day to be the presenter, which is the person that gives you your food in the drivethrough, so like, i was standing there, and was being a whiney little bitch cause I was supposed to go on break 30 minutes ago, and people would just keep on coming through drive-through and I was just like ' GODDAMN WALK INSIDE YOU LAZY ASS PEOPLE!!!" -laughter of workers in background- Caysi ( best friend, fellow senior, manager): Give those people their food and get your ass on break girl!!! Piper!!! Jonathan Piper ( also friend, fellow senior, manager): What!?!?! Caysi: Get your ass of break and come take Dawns' spot!!!" Me: Hah!! So then, I give my friend ben a puppy dog face, cause I was reeeeally hungry and wanted to eat, and I grab the order from the table and get ready to 'present' it to the people. I turn my head, and ONLY my head, and the next thing I know I'm flat ass splayed on the floor. I have no idea what happened. I was standing, then I was on the floor. I hear Caysi laughing her ass off in the background, and Zack, another friend/fellow senior/manager comes running from the register, just drops the peoples food onto the coutner and is like, running at me yelling. " OH MY GOD ARE YOU OKAY!?!? DONNA YOU HURT!??!?!" and like, having a mental spazz, and at that point I had realized what happend and started laughing, but I was laughing so hard I couldnt' make the noises of laughter XD and I was crying, but not cause i was hurt, but cause I was laughing so hard. And that kinda made it worse cause I guess he thought I hurt something, then I heard someone go" Did someone shoot her from the drivethrough!?" And I realized I had spilled strawberry fruitopia all over the place in the process of my sudden droppage. and I guess.....it COULD look like blood...if it wasn't clear and smelled lik sweeeeeet strawberries. So I start laughing even harder and Zack is trying to pick me up, and finally I get up and they're just gawking and I'm like ' I SLIPPED WHILE STANDING ABSOLUTELY STILL!!" and yeah. lol. It was......very funny. Lol. I'm still at a loss as to how it happened. According to my friends. I was standing there. THen I wasn't. Megan had also asked about it, but through the drivethrough window as she was the one who was waiting for her order. She had seen me just 'bloop!" vanish. It was wild. SHe had just gotten off FROM doing the job I was doing. But yeah, I was fine....all except my dignity which crumbled away and was blown away by the wind of laughter....yes yes...lol. I never want to do presenter again lol. Other than that, i got my paycheck, and all was fine.
Today I feel the effects of that though. Sore ass and sore knee....plus I gotta wash my uniform which also has ice cream on it because I apparently have no clue how to eat ice cream -.-;;; lol. yes....well. I'm going to head off to the coast now. -yay- to buy......japanese and gothic things......yay!!! -runs off laughing heartily and happily-
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[Jan. 6th, 2005|08:35 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | drained | ] |
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| | Dir En Grey: Wake, Saiyo no uta; Jades, Children | ] |
Blah, My knees! My legs!!! The pain!!!!
but I enjoyed it!!!
though I know everyone is probably >.< at me and stuff. Hahah. i can't help it. At least I DIDN'T blow up the shake machine. -cackles- They'll probably stick me in the back, after I got the 3 to last order before I left so totally fucked up lol. Omg it was wild......but yeah!!! lol, That one guy is kinda cute....
BUT ENOUGH!!
I don't get paid tll the end of the month....-shrugs- but it'll be big yes...?
I dunno...I think I might go soak or something....my legs hurt so much......blargh........-wiggles and whatnot-
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[Jan. 5th, 2005|05:35 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | Mad Hatter Insane yes yes | ] |
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| | Cowboy Bebop: Stray Dog Strut; Blue; Green Bird | ] |
He hates me. I know it.
I've pissed him off pretty bad...
I'm sorry Brandon...
-sigh- I start work tomorrow
Weeee...
At least parker is going to be there
so it'll be bearable
yes yes....
=whine whine whine bitch bitch= Because I can. hahaha. yes
I am a cunt whore bitch that needs to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yes. yes yes....
blah blah blah blah blah. White noise comes out friday. yay! But i'll probably have to work, which is like, boooo.....but I'm getting paid so it don't matter. ha ha ha. ha ha.
-sigh- I am so bored....someone needs to come along and cure my boredome...nooooow
Think I'll go play X-2....need to et everyone up so I can beat that damnable fiend in Bikanel Desert >.< Cuz I suxks and that thing has 100000000000000000 (exaggerated but it's something like that) health points and 30 minutes into the and I third that......goddamn!! >. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2005|12:56 pm] |
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| |  Fried!! | ] |
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| | Cowboy Bebop: 24 hours a day | ] |
wahhaha
in school
bored
very very tired
'jimmy changa's' stuck in my head
whatever that is
i don't start till thursday cuz they didn't have my uniform XD yayness
an extra 2 days to sleep all day
then work -.-
but money
yay!!
I touched....
love him
praise him
I love you!!
-glomps-
gotta go now...in class....yes.....
I'll write later...something more informative then this babble...yes....
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[Jan. 1st, 2005|11:52 pm] |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence: Pussy All Night | ] |
Yay!!
I got the job!!
I start monday!!
yay!!
Money!!
Yay!!
-wiggle-
Now... I forgot XD |
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[Dec. 31st, 2004|08:50 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| |  curious | ] |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence : Holy Shit, I Hate Jimmy Page | ] |
Merry Chri----- Happy new years !!! yay !!! Not really XP OMG I GOT AN INTERVIEW AT MCDONALDS!!! -feigned excitement- woooooo. Yay....not really but yeah!!!lol. Finally I gets the money. w00t -wiggle- |
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[Dec. 27th, 2004|04:34 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | crushed | ] |
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| | MIndless Self Undulgence: I hate Jimmy Page | ] |
Wish I had a cool background... |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2004|05:29 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| |  Mind's Rotting Away | ] |
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| | Muse: Yes Please | ] |
Yeah
x-mas bites big time
except for gifts....things you have to wait a whole year to get....don't really undestand that.... spenda shitload of money at one time...or actually buy things when they come out.....yeah....
Gots me a couple more scars to adorn these wrists of mine. Beauties. Really.
I am so fucking pissed at you Keven. Sometimes, I wish you'd just die and get the fuck out of my life. You are such a goddamn E-Whore. But yeah... sometimes those stupid left over feelings get in the way... but that still doesn't stop me from hating you the slightest bit.
I miss you Brandon. You're probably in New York right now. On your humanities trip. Or so you say... I really hope you didn't lie to me....But I trust you....Still waiting for you're letter... less then 6 monthes now!! I'm so excited....
6 monthes till I graduate.... 6 more monthes and we all graduate!!
I'm so fucking insane...
My mind is so warped. My perspectives are so warped. My heart is so twisted. Everything I'm doing.....everything I'm going to do... is for that one person...
I am going insane. everyone I see...I hate everyone...but I love everyone to death....my friends...but I want them all to die!!
why!?
My mind is slowly being eaten away by regret...hatred....pity... dark...dark feelings...everything is being twisted....I'm so paranoid....about....every little things....my mood swings have gotten so bad.....
I don't know what to do anymore... I wish he were here...
I wish you were here...
The one my heart yearns for...
Someone kill me..... |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2004|08:12 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | crushed | ] |
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| | Muse: Stockholm Syndrome | ] |
Ima dirty whore
yes yes yes yes yes
can this blade go any deeper?
I need to be shot
my head hurts |
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| Boo |
[Dec. 20th, 2004|06:50 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | Err.. | ] |
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| | Mindless Self Indulgence: Planet Of the Apes; Seven Eleven | ] |
Got a boyfriend now
Chance Watson
But I think I'm going to break up with him
I'm starting to turn blank again...
I don't want to hurt him
But I like him a lot
But my heart belongs to someone else
Someone I'll be with soon....
I'm such a whore Aren't I? |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|08:08 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | complacent | ] |
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| | silence --- Muse | ] |
I sneeze whenever I am in pain
Hummmm
And I had a bad dream where my friends, in a drunken stupor, killed Daniel
it made me cry
then Daniel turned into an ass
so now I'm kinda glad my friends killed him in my dream
but I'm still sad....
Hummmm
I need to buy new razors
mine are getting dull
yessss.....
And. I like - - - - - -
2 C, 1 H, 1 A, 1 E 1 N
But I also like - - - - - -
1 A, 1 W, 1 E, 1 N, 1 R, 1 D
Hummm
Whelp!! Off to kill booooredom |
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[Nov. 14th, 2004|07:08 pm] |
| [ | Color Me |
| | chipper | ] |
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| | Miyavi: Rock No Gyakushuu - Superstar No Jouken | ] |
Ha. As with every journal, I've finally remembered the password I've forgotten
hah.
it never fails. but at least I remembered it always in the end kinda
Anyways, I have a new fav band yes yes
Dir en Grey
so great!!! I lurves, they be so great
wahahahh
oh, and Miyavi.
they are so great, these two bands are!!!
I want all of their cds......yes!!! -squees- my new obsession.....
I'm not sure what else to write. hum, my life has been a mixture of crap and goodness. right now, just trying to coast through life ignoring EVERYTHING I hate
um....or trying to deal with it in some way
which is ignoring it
yeah
hum
I think that's it
yeah....I shall tell more later on yes yes.... |
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| Being me again |
[Oct. 17th, 2004|02:17 pm] |
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| | numb | ] |
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| | Slipknot : The Nameless | ] |
Well
I'm doing it again
I'm pushing people away
more over I'm pushing away the ones I really care for.
Heh.....and now I can't stop crying.....because he's left me.....
I hate my life.....I hate it.... I hate it I hate it I hate it.....
wish I'd die already.......god.....heh, besides being thin.......
Death is something I want more.......
Please.......end my life..... |
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| New Journal |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|09:12 pm] |
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| | crappy | ] |
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| | System of a Down: Shame on a Nigga | ] |
Okay
My new journal, hopefully I'll like this one a lot better than my previous one. Just cause. SO anyways. I will repost the last post of my last journal as the first ( kinda ) entry in this one....if that makes it any sense. So anyways. Yeah. |
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